Love You More

I don't know if I remember quite how it started, but it definitely started between me and Sydney.  Somehow we started this thing where won of us would say, "I love you more", and then it would be a race to say, "I love you more, I win".  Most people who know me, know that I am very competitive and I like to win, so I'd like to think that I always win this game.  In any event, it became a "thing".  I say it to all of my kids and whenever I see the saying anywhere, it makes me think of my kids.  Sydney has it all over her room because anytime I'm at a store and I see a pillow, wall sign, etc. that says "love you more", I buy it for her.

So, last month, I did something I swore I would never ever do.  I got a tattoo.  For some reason I was just never a fan of them and couldn't think of a reason why I would possibly get one and would never get something that I would regret.  But I realized that this saying carried a lot of weight for me and really meant something.  So I did it.

I figured that it was a well thought out plan.  It wasn't some spur of the moment thing that I did because I was a little tipsy (ha...pretty rare), or some random dare from friends, or a stupid move in college because everyone else was doing it. I couldn't think of a  reason why I would ever regret loving my kids. It's a constant reminder to me of my kids when I'm at work and I look down at my wrist.  I don't spend all day with them, but I definitely think about them a lot whether they realize it or not.

So, one day when I'm old and gray (well shoot...I'd say there are already too many grays), this will not be a decision that I look back and say, "what in the world was I thinking".

I'm sure people will judge, but for me, it was the right thing to do!



Sydney, if you're reading this...I love you more...I win!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ha!